Sunday, November 17, 2013
Saturday, November 16, 2013
Monday, November 12, 2012
A lot is going on in my life lately...not so much in a daily activity or event way, but emotionally and internally. Age is likely the culprit and is making me feel things so deeply and pronounced. I want to scream at drivers on the road (no, change that - throw shovels at them), cry over TV commercials, and worry about every single little thing imaginable. I know, I know - I've always done these things but it's more intense and pronounced now. Crippling at times. I'm just really coming to understand how my life has unfolded (unraveled) and I feel the need to take the reins and charge in a different direction. So much has brought me here - to this place of uncertainty, fear and helplessness that I'm stuck in at times. Like sludge that won't allow me to move. But I can't stay stuck here forever and owe it to my kids to find some answers. Heavy, but this part's just for me. A secret place like a big tree that I can sit under with a friend, trying to figure out
Thursday, March 01, 2012
Sunday, August 29, 2010
A new & improved/happier Deb
Anybody (still) out there?
First of all - sad that people connect, then disconnect here in the blogworld. Most have moved on to those cesspools otherwise known as Facebook & Twitter (whom we will now refer to as Twitfaces), but some have just plain disappeared. And that saddens me (WN - you know who you are).
I am doing well. Extremely well - saw my doctor Thursday for the first time in nearly two years and he went "wow, you're looking great". So I guess that's good.
I am a summer person - have always known that. Am happiest when it's summer and I can spend half my day outside. Am back to a pretty rigid fitness routine - was missing from my life for awhile and it's a big piece that needs to be in place if I am to be truly happy. Have been running since I was 12. Started swimming/aerobics in my teens. It's just part of who I am and I feel complete with a dumbbell in my hand.
Work is great. Insanely busy and chaotic - but that's how I roll. The people are fantastic and as crazy as I am, so it works well for me.
Have been moderating on the Canucks forums, which is where I spend 98% of my non work/family related time. Great people there, too. So it seems that I'm surrounded by them, which is a big part of my overall happiness these days.
The downside in my life - road rage. I could shoot people when I drive - no questions asked. Would likely be easier on all of us. Today I fingered 3 people in one trip. Outta control. They are.
But I'm working on them. We'll get them straightened out soon.
That's it - a whole lotta nothing. But a smile on my face, and that's fairly new.
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
I had to fire someone yesterday...that did not feel good.
I read her FB status later in the evening, which stated that it "was the worst fucking day of her life".
So then I really did not feel good.
I felt that we should've given her a chance...explained why she was not meeting expectations and seen if an improvement was made. We had a meeting last week to discuss "her" and that was my recommendation. Then she didn't show up for work yesterday. Brilliant. Done deal as far as my boss was concerned. I did it via telephone - pretty uncool in my opinion. The Employment Standards Act likely thinks so too.
Ah well, life goes on.
Today her FB status read" "best day of my life - sun is shining and Tom Petty tonight".
I guess she's over it. So I can be too.
Thursday, June 03, 2010
Few & Far Between
New and improved Deb is here.
I am loving my new job (although, after 8 months, I guess it's no longer classified as "new"). The time flies by and I really look forward to going to work. It is stressful, don't get me wrong - my coworker equates it to the stock market trading floor. But I thrive on that - on organized chaos...it's where I live.
After having been in a rather suffocating, one sided marriage that really didn't focus on me much, I'm finally coming into my own (again). I have a purpose beyond being a Mom (which will always be my number one priority)...I love that I feel challenged each and every day.
I was promoted to office manager today and got my third raise. In a nutshell, it feels damn good to be appreciated, respected and feel worthy of all of that.
Not everything is rosey - Dad was sued and owes a very large award to ICBC. Initially, it crushed us - nearly took us both down as we were devastated by the news that we thought couldn't possibly ever come true. How could it? The guy was a fraud and I'd taken enough pictures and gathered plenty of evidence to support that. But he had one thing we didn't - high priced lawyer friends. 'Nuff said.
In the end, we both concluded that we shouldn't let this consume us...that, if we did, he really had "won". It's money...we can survive (and will). Move on.
The ex is a dick. But we already knew that. It just needed to be reiterated because, apparently, this week is be a total dick week.
All in all, Deb is happy. And she hopes you are too. :)